touching base/wood/the keys

ah, man, I’ve missed my little ibook– chris got it working again just last night and then was off to work super-early this morning, so here I lie, having my old type-in-bed time once more. an indeterminate brain is confronted by the opportunity…

honestly, I’ve felt a bit adrift without the tether of words composed here– facebook brings something else entirely– reconnections, semi-connections, a superficial sort of webbing, but webbing nonetheless– it’s brought me back into some form of contact with more than one lost friend, for which I’m enormously grateful– but the writing medium is altogether different, requiring by custom if not strict technical limitiation (as twitter) a tendency of hyper-abbreviation. this tenor is most surely the coin of the realm more generally, but as an expressive form it does little for real mulling through– my milieu. yes, I know, it isn’t as if vox (or for that matter wordpress, blogger or, heck, my trusty paper journal) has gone away, only myself that has elected to neglect the form– the medium itself remains available throughout my various distractions.

and to what do these distractions amount? little coherent cumulatively, I fear. there’s me, always inclining to weigh and measure. recently here and there been torturing myself for no good reason with google searches for people I no longer need any connection with– wretched, idle hands. I know better. well, at least the killing curiosity is soon exhausted with lack of any relevance, but it’s a waste of energy. and other wastes as well– time and self spent merely watching video, tuning out, dialling down the day. then there’s been some good reading (margaret atwood– and attending her gorgeous many-voiced book launch event downtown on friday). a weekend full of sleep, fighting off one of the many seasonal bugs flying around. glorious golden autumn days. car repairs etcetera.

adrift. diffuse. in need of locating a likely thread to stitch it all into some sense.

one thing tho: we’ve begun to plan weddinging for 2010– in our own idiosyncratic way, with sites of celebration in chicago and northern michigan– we’ve started sketching it out for ourselves, what’s wanted, what’s not wanted, how to accommodate the needs versus desires of those we love, how to make something authentic and real and delicious and right for ourselves, to relinquish any mar from the past’s damaged expectations– to begin anew, rightly and brilliantly, for ourselves.

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0 Replies to “touching base/wood/the keys”

  1. It's always lovely to see you post!Sorry you ibook was not working. I have one that needs a new hard drive and I simply cannot get myself to do the work. Ifixit.com gives 29 PAGES of instructions, not steps, PAGES. Oy!Congratulations on the pre-planning wedding stuff. I think that I'd quite like the institution of marriage but cannot imagine getting from here to there! Good mojo to you!While I still read the 'hood, I comment rarely since it's a bit of a problem (can't from my cell and even from a desktop sometimes Vox is WEIRD). I agree. Twitter is sort of useful only as directing people that I've updated my blog or sending a quick DM. FB…well, I'm on there as the me-me (not meme ;p) and like you, feel enormous gratitude for finding old lost friends there! Yet, on the whole, it's annoying, isn't it?I prefer blogging and since I moved to WP, I don't get the same hits or hardly any comments but at least it's easy to work with. I feel that lack of tethering, too.

  2. it's interesting to me– while I was doing a quick and long-overdue vox neighborhood catch-up read this morning, I noted that patty has be reflecting on very nearly the same constellation of media and writing/networking trends in her own way. maybe it's in the air? vox was for such a good couple of years such a good writing network for me– and then in one way and another my roots here have grown attenuated– as neighbors drift away and as my own involvement and attention drifts. I do realize that one of my best-loved features of digital media (and community for that matter) is their dynamism, but there's a tension there, too– how to keep a good thing growing, through change's shapes of shedding and stretch.

  3. congrats on the weddinging! it makes me happy that you have found something wonderful.I totally relate to the feeling of adriftness this year. definitely kindled by not having a day job since march. all of this time! and yet too much distraction, lack of focus, anxiety. I also find myself in the evening prowling hulu for something to stare at, often with a bottle of wine. tuning in, turning off.

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